Sunday, October 2, 2011

Overwhelmed.

Do you ever feel that way?  Completely overwhelmed?

You know the feeling, right?
Out of control.
"Stuff" surrounding you.
 The never ending to-do list swirling in your head.

Well, I do.  It seems to be my daily life.  I swear I JUST cleaned my house on Friday and today it looks as if three tornadoes have been through it.  The tornadoes even have names! (Want to guess?)

It seems crazy to even think I have the time or energy to clean my house.  I mean, we are SO BUSY these days.  I sometimes wonder what life would be like to move to a different place (by the beach) ...mingle in with the town folk and live a much simpler style of life.  Sounds great, right?  But then I wonder...would I really like a simpler life?  Don't I thrive on the chaos, even just a little bit?  Would I grow bored?  Would my kids grow bored?  Don't get me wrong...I love the sense of community, the sports, the school activities, the to-do lists...but I have to think  "Does any of this even matter?"

In the grand scheme of "LIFE" - does it matter if Tanner plays baseball or if Tate makes an "A"?  Does it matter that Tucker doesn't want to go to the "big boy potty"?  So what if he's happy in a diaper?  Isn't there more things to life than us as parents teaching our children to be "busy"?

Turns out there is.  We've got a purpose.  I know...you've heard that before, but when is the last time you thought about YOUR  purpose?  When is the last time you pondered what your "special task" is?

Well, I've finally figured out mine.  You ready for this?   It's the gifts that were given to me in the form of sons.  Tate, Tanner and Tucker are my reasons for being here.
At this time.
In this moment.
To teach them about life, about love and to help them discover what their purpose is.  Some days are crazy busy, some days are not.  What I've learned most of all through this thing called "life" is that the miracle of children, the innocence of their view on our world; being "busy" just doesn't matter.  What does matter is LOVE.  Love for God, love for others and loving themselves.  That's what MY purpose is in life ~ to teach my boys how to love and how to be loved.

Oh great!  NOW I'm really feeling overwhelmed!    :0)